The fact that you are remorseful means that you are a good person. I did something similar, and I cry as I write this. I know you'll never forget or entirely forgive yourself, but know that you are not a bad person and most definitely not alone.
I stepped on a kitten which may or may not have died later on, but once dropped a mouse who died from a broken back sustained from the fall... still feel horrible about it even though I was maybe 6 and 8 respectively and meant no harm in either case (I didn't see the cat and I'm very clumsy). Certain things you just never forget, just don't let them haunt you when you know you're a good person and would never have intended to harm an animal like that.
a good friend of mine had a pretty lovebird who she would let fly around in the bathroom while she showered. one time, as she was getting out of the shower, she stepped on the bird (who she didn't see sitting on the floor) and he died. please know that you're not alone in what happened. forgive yourself- you were just a small child.
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