oh. number one hundred and twenty-nine.

i fell in love with you. despite everything. i fell in love with you. and no matter how hard i try to forget how utterly amazing you were and are. how much i try to move on. i cant help but dream about you.
i try to convince myself i dont want you back and if you called me up today i wouldnt drop everything and the very nice new boy i have to be with you. just for another day.
even worse? i've let another boy fall in love with me when i just can't love him back 100% because a good chunk of my heart is still with you. who i didnt even know.

i feel so stereotypical and stupid.